how do i even begin?
eight years ago, i thought i had more time.
i had appointments scheduled at work for monday morning.
like, a FULL work day of meetings.
i wasn’t ready to have a baby.
the car seat wasn’t installed yet.
i didn’t have a bag packed.
i hadn’t scheduled my hospital tour yet.
i was only 35 weeks and 6 days pregnant when i went to the hospital with AWFUL pain.
pain so bad i couldn’t sit down.
not on a chair.
not on a bed.
not on a couch.
not on a yoga ball.
not even on an open toilet seat.
just THINKING back to this makes me want to cross my legs.
you came into this world in your own timing,
and i’m so glad you did.
you made me a mom.
you made us parents.
you filled our heart more than i realized was possible.
you were a delight and a joy.
and a trial and pure exhaustion all rolled into one.
you wanted to be walked.
all the time.
day and night.
mostly at night.
you didn’t want to sleep.
i was exhausted.
daddy was exhausted.
but you were so sweet.
and we loved you.
we LOVE you.
you LOVE jokes.
you love to read them.
to listen to them.
to share them.
to make them up.
(but the ones you make up aren’t really “jokes.”)
you love your parents.
you love your sisters.
you are a GREAT big brother.
you LOVE your grandpa.
you have no personal bubble when you can be next to someone you love and adore.
you love your entire family – aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, nana….
and you would do just about anything for any one of them.
you LOVE to read and are amazing at it (4th grade level!!!).
you love school – and we’re thankful for that!
you love science and social studies
along with reading and math.
you love to play with your friends.
but you also like to kick back with a book.
you are relatively easy-going.
you do best with structure and order.
you are ridiculously smart.
you love anything with a screen – TV, movie theater, iPad, iPhone, video games, etc.
you love electronics.
you really ZONE out in front of a screen, though.
i think your mind transports you to a different universe when you’re enjoying screen time.
you’re a pretty good problem solver.
you like to think.
you like to be challenged.
you like to work with your brain.
you love to build with Lego blocks.
you love to play board games (current favorites include Monopoly Jr, Rack-O, Trouble, Checkers, Sequence, Life, and others).
you love music.
especially Alternative Rock.
but most of the time you still pronounce is “Alter-native” and in many ways, I wish you would never correct that pronunciation.
you’re about to start 3rd grade.
which is the OTHER side of the school.
and a whole new hallway.
why are you growing up so fast?!
you’re showing a real love for sports.
especially baseball and basketball.
you like to watch football.
you’re picking up terminology and lingo from kids at school.
and from grandpa.
and it’s so much fun to watch you learn to love something new.
i love your laugh.
i love your smile.
you won’t always smile for the camera, but when you do,
they’re great photos!
you seem to have fun anywhere.
you prefer to be inside.
reading or building with Legos.
but you also like to be outside now.
swimming, basketball, baseball, throwing the football, kicking the soccer ball….
we sometimes have to command you to go outside and do something active.
but you really do enjoy it.
you prefer to take your lunch to school.
you always want a PB&J or a turkey & cheese sandwich.
but this summer you’ve started eating some ham & cheese sandwiches.
you like apples and grapes and strawberries best.
your favorite meals from home are teriyaki chicken or chicken satay w/ peanut sauce.
oops – and salsa verde tacos.
you LOVE special “davey and daddy” movie dates at the cheap theater.
or at home.
you just like the movies.
and you love your dad.
you’re eager to see the Avengers: Age of Ultron at the cheap theater with daddy.
you want to be a Firefighter when you grow up.
and a police officer.
and in the armed forces.
and a pilot.
and an astronaut.
i’m convinced you can do ANY of those things.
more than one, in fact.
though i’m not sure that we’ll ever send HUMANS into space again.
you’re approximately 3’10″ tall.
you wear size 12 shoes.
your waist is still skinny with 5T being the best fitting shorts for you.
you’re working your way into size 6 shirts.
you still prefer athletic shorts but i still won’t let you wear them to school.
(i’m such a mean mom.)
you weigh approximately 40 pounds.
you have a great mix of friends.
and i love that you have several friends who like what you like: Lego bricks, math, science, reading…
but i also love that you have friends who introduce you to sports.
and different professional teams.
though i’m not sure i’ve fully forgiven you for rooting for the Denver Broncos in the SuperBowl two years ago.
it’s okay, though. the Seattle Seahawks won.
moms are always right.
just remember that.
or learn it.
and then remember it.
you LOVE to make paper airplanes.
and while i want to encourage that,
i really don’t want to keep picking them up off the floor.
off my craft table.
out of my closet.
out of my hair.
one day, your sensitive heart will be an asset and a strength.
it has been so much fun to watch you this past year.
to see life through YOUR eyes.
to watch you learn how to do something new.
to watch you figure out how to problem solve.
to see the light in your eyes when something “CLICKS.”
i wouldn’t be surprised if you became an evangelist.
your current lunchtime prayer includes a request for everyone we know to repent.
your heart for God is an amazing thing.
don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
you listen to the truth.
you read the Word of God.
you grow in your knowledge of Him.
you grow in your love for Him.
you let HIM be your guide.
you were the perfect way to grow our family.
from two. to three.
you’re my first baby.
my only son.
so grown up.
and yet still so young.
it’s hard to believe that day was already eight years ago.
i love you more than you can imagine, my Bug.
and i will love you forever.
i will rejoice in your triumphs.
and i will mourn in your defeats.
i will encourage you.
i will push you.
i will love you unconditionally through it all.
you are my son.
my only son.
and i love you.
don’t ever forget that!
I LOVE YOU, MY BUG!